days like this makes me miss phs like freaking a lot? because when in phs, i get to sleep in every lesson! haha. de only lessons which i am awake is chinese and bio lessons. like omg. tiring!! haha. that day i went PHS and i was thinking, after so many months in TJ, why can't i let go of the feeling i had for PHS. hmmm. i think i am a slow person. hahahahaha. anywayys, today is weird! is like, it's kind of silly to have math lecture cancelled? haha. because if they told us earlier, i would come to school at abt 9 and wear PDP shirt so that i wun risk being caught for being late :P hehehe. jk jk. omg. sleeeepppy!!

was practising under LT2 for OP. hehe. like quite boring actually! hahahaha. but was having fun trying to dig smth out of cherilynn. like de way she talk and stuff! so funnie lar her! CUTE :D then took videos of jess and cherilynn! haha. seriously, jess de reaction super funnie! hehe. if only i can post it up on fb! :P which i wun lar. i dun want her and cherilynn to join force and kill me! omg. i wun live to see de next day. hehe :) but i think like gengerally if everyone smile more, it shld be ok? i was like correcting their subconscious actions, like not much of a problem? :D hehe. just need to smile more and yup! we are ready! then jess and cherilynn were commenting saying that i keep saying YUP. gosh! got to kick that habit! hehe. but it was quite funnie hearing other ppl comment about myself. like HUH I REALLIE DID THAT? hehe!

then went to mr foo's room to tell him that we practising op so we skip his lesson. omg. has anyone told him that his room is freezing cold? i went in and i can feel my fingers having frostbites :P hehe. jk jk. but his room reallie cold..... and messy! hahahahaha. then rehearse for a while and went up! then it's our turn to present after eugene's grp. like quite fun! hehe. cannot imagine next year my srp presentation. omg. :X screwed. i haven't prepare a single crap out of that pile of results. HAHA. seriously, my H3 is screwed. rofl! dun care first ba ! :X hehe. pw like more impt for now! hehe. amar took videos for us! omg. EMBARASSING. and i kind of screwed up my Q&A because i made a stupid mistake which i know i shldn't make -.- zzzz. feel like slapping myself. haha

after that went lunching with joyce, yc, cheryl, eugene and sy! haha. ate prata! omg. i miss jalan kayu's roti prata! de last time i went was with bangsq, shawn and stephie in de middle of de night! omg. feel like going at night again! HEHE. i like going out at night! like quite fun! hehe. went home with cheryL! hehe. omg sleeeeeeepy! is like totally feel like sleeping. reached home, bathe and collapse on my bed, trying to sleep while sms-ing! hahahaha. then stomachache and went diarrhea for half an hour -.- like omg? i was like calling eugene they all to ask if they going cheryl hse. call till i dozed! end up nvr go. hehe. then i continue sleeping! omg. feel like a pig? haha.

saw de tv show, de person sqeezing cow dung -.- i was like, what de?! omg. disgusting to the max can!!! omg. craps. roll into a stick kind from ball shape. then squeeze de juice. wth :X my mommy totally CMI lor. hehe. but then just treat it like soil and dun think it is dung can le ba. hahahahaha.

went to look for tchers de moment i step into PHS. hahaha. went to foyer to register. mr hui go like MISS TRIGONOMETRY. WELCOME BACK. i was like, o.O! then de next moment, he ask me spend $25 to buy book. i end up forgot to buy . got my photo inside leh! hehe :) then went to second floor. went to science room first but can't find mrs choy!! :( was like super jealous that de juniors got de new data logger! we all no have lor! then went humans room then chinese room. saw HUANG YING! omg. my favourite chinese tcher. his teaching CMI but i always laugh in his class. ALWAYS. one perios straight i will just laugh. he got JOKER look. hehe :) but reallie nice. my favourite lesson! haha.

awww OMG. i MISS MISS MISS PHS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! :(

this morning was like super hungrie and i realise that de school's canteen stores are not open! OMG. sad. anywayys, got this adopt-a-tree ceremony in my school? they earned $31000 just because a few people adopted a tree. omg. i also want! hehehe. TJ got 300 trees wor! incredible! i wonder who is de one who counted de number of trees. omg. kudos!

then had math test EARLY in de morning. destroy my pretty day! hehe. physics lecture was horrible. is it even a lecture in de first place -.- is like, i can't hear de craps which de lecturer is yacking, and i dun get it ! omg. but quite fun? hahaha.

then we dunno which room to report! argh! end up entered room 213 i think? got a super weird smell! cannot take it :X hehe. then mr lim came in and start talking about PW. OMG. my jaws nearly dropped. HAHAHA. he say our grp de report not bad wor! omg super happie! :D hehe. like all de sleepless nights are worth it man! hehe. nice nice! keep up de good work girls! :)

then got this concert celebration. OH MY GOD. music box is like, omg. gave me a shock of my life. that performer wear till like so revailing? i mean her legs lar :X plus is staff day somemore!!!! she dress till so inappropriate. was msging jiaming throughout and omg. we both agree that she is crazy. hahahaha. but her singing quite ok i must say, just that towards de end she a bit no more energy left. FREAKING TALL. and then, her legs are pretty :X hehehe. was like omg. mrs janice lim and mrs choy both talked to me over de phone and ahhh. i reallie feel like crying :( i reallie miss them lots lots and i reallie like, how i wish i can fly there immediately and give them a big HUG nerh :( omg. reallie wish that i could do that. but i can't :( i can't :(

then realease at 12, then de stupid guards no want to open de gate!!! what's de problem lar! just OPEN THAT FREAKING GATE since de whole event ended!! argh! me and minh trang was like, wait till super pissed off lor. :X then anywayys, met jiaming at de bus stop and then walked to bedok interchange to take taxi. si yuh say i zhong se qing you. WHERE GOT LOR! hehe.

then on taxi, was having a little catchup session with him! talking about TJ and PHS. so funnie! hehe. and he gave me lots of sweet. and then this is what happened:

i was like, OMG?!?!?! i didn't realise it's his bday! haha. EPIC lar! hehe. but wished him after that! just that nvr give him prezzie. then he say he dun reallie care about bday. hmmz. guys like dun reallie care? hahahaha.

anywayys, yup yup. then met janice, sharon at AMK HUB! omg. they thought i am a glutton! they ordered two lotus rice, 4 siew mais, 2 carrot cakes, 1 dumpling, a bit of noodles for me, one bowl of snow ice dessert and a cup of soya milk. and i only rmb telling janice that i want siew mai and dessert. ROFL!! super cute lar they all!! hehe. eat so much still i didnt eat dinner and i am still feeling full! :X hehe. then went to meet my clique's ppl at dessert house for a while to catch up and talk. but left kind of fast because me pei-ing janice and sharon to go for janice's dental appt. hehe. had lots of fun talking on de train and ahhh. i love this feeling :)

at de dental there, me and sharon was reading our tutorials. ( so that we feel less guilty about going out to play ) hehe. super funnie! then went to cityhall after janice came out from toilet! hehe.

brough a notebook for mr edwin and a highlighter for shize! super cute de! then janice was like, tempted by me to buy lots of stuff. hahahahaha. nice one! :D hehe. buy more buy more! hehehe. then went home and we continued chatting on de train. awww nice!!

today is like super freeaking unlucky? is like early in de morning, i took de train to school. ok, to be exact, 3 trains and one bus. hehe. is like, i missed two trains and i waited for freaking long? omg. and thats because my daddy's car broke down. oh god, you have no idea how much i miss my daddy's car. waking at such freaking hours of a day is a tragic! and what happened next is tragic x2!

when i reach TJ ( FINALLY) , i put my bags in de parade ground because i thought i will take quite long in de toilet so might as well leave my stuffs there first. is like, I KNEW IT WAS GOING TO RAIN. but i was thinking, maybe wun so unlucky ba? zzz. end up i walk halfway to toilet it started raining then i ran to get my bags and ran to de canteen and ahhhh. i am wet!!! ZZZ... and my hair looks like some crazy woman when i didn't tie it. omg T.T super unlucky.

anywayys, thats about it lor. during econs lecture, i super tired. omg. reallie tired. startd dozing but after awhile wake le. hehe. because some things are not on de notes so me need to copy down. keeps me awake! :D

hehe so that's about de rest of de day? like typical school day. nth much. sian sian de. apart from joking with my clique de ppl, that's pretty much de same. hehe. thenduring pw meeting. omg. disasterous. not reallie a disaster lar. we were having peaceful group discussion. AND WHY DIDN'T MR LIM TELL ME THAT I DUN NEED LAPPY TODAY, waste my effort. -.-

so we were discussing about oral presentation. like quite ok? even though got lots of clash in ideas but then like end up quite ok. but i reallie hate replies like anything, up to you. rofl! is like, even though wang mo suggested a voting, but i just decided to give in since like i dun think anyone agrees on my idea ? hehe. but ended up de final decision still like what i was saying ma. rofl. go one big fat round to realise de flaw. then one of them is like, very soft spoken then dun direct de qns to de group. so she direct to me only. but prob is, i only have one mouth and one brain. if she use a soft tone to speak to me, i can't possibly use a tone of 2 times her tone to make sure de grp heard us ma. end up it seemed like we two having our own mini discussion and de others are playing, and became my fault for having that mini discussion which was meant for de whole grp, that is, if they bother finding out what was happening. then after that gave attitude saying that they are waiting for me. hmm. okayys, my fault. if they are unhappy, they could have voice it out saying that why are they not in de discussion. end up everyone black face me then okayys, i learnt my lesson. whatever de rest say, i just ask them speak louder. zzz. so hard to please everyone. is like, her ideas are good cans! super detailed and okayys, she is a very meticulous person to start with. she shld speak louder so that de rest of de members can hear her ideas! and i just realised that we got de same wave length! just that de problems she surfaced just now, are de ones which i thought of long ago. and still existing. haha. sometimes de grp is too reserved. not daring enough. hmmz. well nvr mind :D if they feel safe that way, then we shall do it that way lor! no harm done :)

but de thing is that, all de members used to be de " brains " of their ex groups, so everyone is strong on their stand and dun like de idea of rejection. i dun like too. but sometimes if it reallie doesn't work, then just admit it. my ideas are not perfect. even some of de members' ideas are way better. but it's de problem with voicing out. haha. and not voicing it not loud enough for de rest to hear :X end up me being de bad guy and everyone hates me. haha. sometimes me keeping quiet could mean i am thinking of pw stuffs. it doesn't mean i am stoning and not caring about de meeting. it's just that, members shld be more proactive to raise up issues which i may not have thought off.

well anywayys, pw aside. after that went parkway to shop for tcher's prezzie!! omg. my bag super heavy can!! hehe. was like dragging it around and i think i am growing muscles! argh! if only my fats could disappear! i shld stop eating! :X just realised that tmr PHS ends at 10am, tchers leaving at 11!!!!!!!!! OMG!!!!!!!!!!! why!!!! T.T i want to go back to see them!! i miss them a lot nerh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

haha uploaded some random pictures!!

see that TJC residential kitty? she is eating my BREAKFAST!! is like that day i am suppose to have napha retest, end up because this kitty eat my breakfast, and then de day before i didn't eat a single crap, i ended up having gastric pain and stitches while running my 2.4km. 19.57 min . GREAT I FAILED. congrats me!

oh ya! then found these pictures. htat day national day, me,joyce , yee ching and wang mo went to draw on de floor :X we intended to look for a teacher but found de floor more attractive so we just grab a few chalks and start drawing :X de "5" and " o" at de bottom is done by me!!! so proud of it :D hehehe.

today is a freaking tired day. well, wang mo is not here today. kind of envy her. hehe. can stay at home rest! hopefully her jaws are ok.

then PE that time was reallie fun! i was late for PE, with siyuh. i think that's because de tchers started early? so got to do 20 push ups. hehe. can hear joyce they all de voice from far far! hehe. then that mr sim, who is PHS mr sim's brother, say " must be that PHS de" super loud lor! made me shy shy. hehe. anywayys, we were learning de basics for volleyball. makes me miss PHS a lot. is like volleyball used to be phs's niche, so is like we used to learn volleyball? haha. makes me regret for not learing volleyball well when i was still in PHS. that ball hit my head twice. then my thumb was initially swollen, so end up bleed because de ball kept hitting it T.T pain ahhhh. partnered anna. hehe. she is super cute! haha. we were having fun throwing de balls! hehe. then i always end up shooting de ball over de wall. then de pe tcher just kep passing me a new ball. hehe. super fun!

went to physics lesson. well, i think mr lim super cute! he got that mischievious face you know! hehe. that's about it ba. hehe. during chem lecture, hung they all were talking super loud, then i think wm and wl like kind of pissed off? hmmm. dunno nerh.

super tired for de whole day, i guess is because ytd very late sleep thats why? haha. went to NUS today. before that, me and de other SRP students were in de HUB chionging our summarized report. then i msged wang lei to send me de slides. omg reallie got to thank him lots! without his slides, i wouldn't have been able to complete it. he is my second best mentor!!! first is ms nilar :D hehe. i miss her! wonder hows her life in canada. hmmm. wun have a chnace to meet her ever again i guess. :(

rushed all de way to NUS just to find that de prof is not in his office. ARGH. next week need to go NUS again. haish. then went to de central library to try to borrow books. but hmm, i guess i need to go to de science library, because here no have de books i need. there de toilet very huanted de feeling nerh!! scary!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!1 me dragged si ying with me. hehe.

then super quiet and big. me and si ying's ear couldn't take it. got that yiiiii sound. then she can hear my stomach growl growl. OMG SO EMBARASSING!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! hehe.

that's about it ba!!

i am still holding on to the past! i still can't let go. i can't let go of my life in PHS. sometimes when i am in de lab, when i am in tutorials, memories and images of PHS ppl flash past my mind. i miss them. i miss you.

sometimes i reallie wish to cry out loud. because i didn't treasure de times with PHS. even if you ask me to go back to PHS now, de feeling isn't there anymore. because it's de ppl we are with, de times we had, de things we experienced that makes up de PHS i miss . it is not just de buildings, but de feelings. sometimes when i take de train past YCK station, or when i walk in de mrt station, i will think of de past. the times when i used to walk de same road everyday. de ppl whom i used to see for at least 8 hours a day. omg. i reallie miss those times. i can feel my tears forming, but they just refuse to leave my eyes. they form de beautiful memories which i will nvr ever want to forget.

i will nvr ever want to forget de first person i used to see every morning. de scent always filled up de surrounding air and makes me feel super happie ❤

but reality says that i am now in TJC. i like my class. but de feeling is just not that right. i can't be totally myself when i am in 0510. i dunno why nerh. sometimes is like, it just don't feel right. maybe like what janice said ba. i miss janice!

took train with anna today, finally there is someone to take de train with me, de last time it happened was de last day of school in sec 4? when bl sent me home. :)

school today is great i guess. just that i kept having stomachache and shoulderache and jeremy ELBOWED me. ARGH. PAIN!!!!!!!! spa was quite ok? hehe. mr lim is nice!!!! best physics tcher i ever had. hehe. ( ms lem is nice too. but she dun reallie teach i guess o.O )

celebrated si yuh's bday. hehe. i decorated de cake!! together with joyce yesterday! :) joyce is super cute when she decorates de cake. hehe.

i think that's all for today? got to get working now! hehe. omg. there is PE tmr!!! i guess i failed my napha? got to go for de conditioning class i guess? hope that it helps to reduce my fats. hehe.

you are de last thing