enough of crying ba. i just find myself useless. and i just realise it ytd. haha. useless. de thing is that, i can choose to live and forget stuffs. but dun you get it? when it comes to your stuff, i dun want to forget them. because de person is you. is you. maybe you will feel unlucky ba? like " why must she rmb my stuff and make my life difficult? " haha. then i shall make you feel better by not caring your stuffs? haha. like how you treat things ba :) i will learn de. haha. it takes time for me to let go ba. haha. but i am kind of sad. you questioned me abt me not knowing that you feel stress and tired too. but de thing is that, i am not by your side. i can't see. but i can feel. thats why i always ask you if you are ok. but what's de reply i get? simply " nth. " , " ok arh" . sometimes i reallie doubt you know, is everything reallie ok? for de past 6 months, every is ok? and now you tell me you are stress? i dunno. i am a failure. i can't understand you. jeshua say i must understand you and cheer you up. but how am i able to do that? when all you tell me is nth? in what way can i cheer you up nerh? what can i do for you nerh? i thought i can help you with school work. yet your friends seems to be de better choice when it comes to discussing abt school work. maybe because you all have de same syllabus ba. i thought i can be there for you when you are stress. yet i can't, because i dunno whats going on. there is only one reason i can find for myself to stay by your side now. i find myself completely useless? haha. thats de last and strongest reason. dun make it disappear. please.

anywayys, these thoughts are in my mind when i am like totally drenched? and ytd too. oh gosh. my eyes are like, goldfish? zzz. hopefully my retina doesn't have a hold despite de high risk. i dun want to turn blind. if i reallie do, i might just end my life. haha.

chemistry lesson was reallie fun! haha. mr foo is super LAME. i mean reallie LAME! here is what happened:

Amar: can we do FRS on methyl benzene?

mr foo: you can!!

after a short puase ....

Mr foo: if you are god!

then he turned to de white board and drew methylbenzene and chlorine, then he shout to de board saying " hey! can i just have 1 clorine entering the benzene? "

rofl!! i see le i was like OMG ROFL?!?!?!?!?! haha. seriously cute nerh! anywayys, today freaking cold. today's chemistry lecture super funnie. totally not related to chemistry? haha. motivational talk by mr foo! hehe.

anywayys, that's abt it ba. hehe. guitar section is reallie fun!! hehe. learn to strum and play songs! omg. i love today's section! :D