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♔ Wednesday, January 07, 2009
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today is a very tiring day for me.. filled with a lot of unpleasants..
sometimes i feel that what is the point of me helping people... really, what's de point?
today during chinese class i was like smiling away.. just smiling you know.. maybe laugh a little, but is like happy happy... then tm turned over to talk.. then he and dh say, " can you don't smike/laugh at an inapropriate time?" then i was like, you talk to me obviously i have to smile back right! basic courtesy what.. then he give me that -.- look.. so he meant that if i need to talk to me, i need to show him black face? then he starts asking me can i stop pulling a long face? what de?
then after that physics lesson.. i was like saying " yes!' because ms lem is in de room, not because i like physics! no way man! i hate physics! then xf was like telling zhu li " don't you think that she is very irritating? one whole day so enthu".. then janice was saying ya lor.. then i was like, haha.. okayys... then i no enthu lor... so stayed emotionless lar... quiet lor... they got their peace ya? haha.. i didn't explode till tm,dh and xf came up to me and tell me this: " a research shows that fat women have high risk of getting senile".. then i was like, what are they trying to tell me? that i am fat? then i assume they are refering to me as being fat, so i said " oh is it? my memory very good".. i really pissed off lar... thanks a lot you know.. thanks for using this innovative to tell me this message.. i really appreciate it... i am starting to wonder what is their definition of friend? is not that i can't take jokes you know... if this is a joke, then do you have any idea how long this joke has last? is like since last year june that time they keep joking about it le.. seriously, do you guys have a heart? i critise you all a bit you all go so angry and gah gah over it.. then what about what you all did to me? what should i do? you can't tell me say you don't mean it, because you meant it in de first place...
after that i was like emotionless for one whole day lor...then before we had de conversation session with the principal, someone was asking why i so sad.. then i was like, you very troublesome leh! i enthu you say i ver enthu, i no emotion you say i sad.. then i smile someone will say smile at inappropriate time... who are you to say this of me! HARH?! my dad? my mother? my brother? HUH?! i know most of de time i over enthu over trigo, but then again, aren't you too? didn't you realise that there too are times whereby you get very enthu and people just can't stand it? many people are like that.. but then, my fault lor...
after that gz, worse.
that lin lao shi very bu shuang me.. all of de sudden she call me by my fullname then because that day after BBQ i sick, got diarrhea, then my mom called de gz instructor.. i got no idea what she told de instructor, then she now start scolding me about what my mom say to her then i was like caught by surprise lar.. really shocked..she was saying that i didn't eat much during BBQ why i got diarrhea.. then i was like, obvious i didn't eat much since i fetching my cousin, is after she left then i reach then i eat then she say is it because i stuff too much food that's why i got diarhea.. what she treat me as? hungry ghost? please lar, i hate BBQs... if i am not welfare head, you kill me i also won't go..but de problem is, i didn't eat much! then is like she say she told de mr wei and de mr wei also agree that my mom is in de wrong but that mr wei is like her "lover".. they like commit adultery because when she in front of mr wei, she act so girl lar... mr wei got wife one lor.. what she trying to do? then after that she scold me till very horrible....but i am having diarrhea.. diarhea is like so bad lar... i rather go gz then stay in de toilet that day lar...then i say i dunno anything because i in de toilet.. she say " next time i ask you you better don't say you dunno"..
then after that joyce played a wrong note, she confidently say is i play wrongly, then she in front of de class humiliate me say i should be zi dong, never come must ask from your friend about de changes..but is not i play wrongly de!!!i play correct lor! but i can't say it because she did it on purpose... to vent her anger..so if i really shot her, she will make my time worst... then that JOYCE!!! HATE HER! so what she seng seong CEO's daughter! she NEVER TELL THE TEACHER SAY SHE PLAY WRONGLY...SHE EVEN GIGGLED.. LOOKING AS THOUGH I DESERVE THE SCOLDING!
what de hell!! she is de one who is in de wrong and she can giggle and smile.. then lysander worse, he laugh so loud -.- obviously he knew is joyce play de lor... but then, but what Saddens me is my junior didn't own up.. she even laugh at me, that is what really makes me what to cry... so dishonest.. and to think i helped her quite a few times...
help people? i rather help those who are less fortunate than those who are so fortunate till they are blind towards other's good.. and all they can see is darkness.. all de negative points.. no light at all... go around saying people fat.. you got a religion you know! you should know de rules of your religion.. then why are you still disobeying it.. i am a buddhist... i believe in 因果报应.. i don't go around direct critising people frequently.. but you guys have to do it almost practically every day... how saddening... thanks bang lian and hui shan for lending your ears to me today =) i think tomorrow i will return to normal, i don't like to hug to unhappiness.. it serve no purpose =)
but then again, i wonder what happened to de definition of friend? of good?
the very person who makes you smile, find you smile too much... how will you feel?
