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♔ Monday, October 06, 2008
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today is chinese and physics exam... 3 papers in a day... so long arh~~~ no comments about de paper.. haha... ok lar... actually have lots of comments xD hehe... physics section A is -.- i spent more time on section A than B+C together... HAHA... and i got the first question of section A wrong... lalala.. VERNIER CALIPERS... OH MY GOD?! i got that wrong... lalalalas.... and i thought that question was easy nerh... lalalala.... the rest still OK lar... but then well well... my physics... haha...
returned home... super tired.. seriously i hate my brother... dunno whats wrong with him.. is like, i dote on him de most can? i like his mother cum nanny cum sister cum tuition teacher cum maid -.- teached him all his year's chapters before his exam when i have my own exam going on and this is how he treat me?! FINE LAR. is like i only ate one piece of chocolate and he start critising me, as though i don't worth anything... ok lar.. anything lor.. since i am such an insignificant figure in his heart... fine lar... is not like he is half my intelligience and there he is commenting me... i hate this kind of person.. treat you very good before exam so that you can teach him everything, and after exam, this is what i get... first he starts critising about my height... WHAT DE HELL?! others criticise about my height i no comments lar... because there isn't really much i can do.. tolerate lor... then my brother criticise about my height.. PLEASE LAR.. if you are smart enough to comment about my height, then you should be smart enough to give me solutions to grow taller... if there isn't, get out of my sight or stop commenting.. dunno whats wrong with him -.- taller than me by 5 cm and he is so happy about it.. he is consider SHORT okkayy... is like, i girl, so short also never mind.. at most next time i be careerwoman.. but if a guy like his height, and well, inteligience is like average with no goals is life, OH PLEASE... find a wall and just knock into it...
next is my size.. fine lar.. i admit that i am fat, you happy now? why don't you try to help me to slim down, isn't it more practical? dunno whats wrong with him and my mother -.-there he say me fat and here he wants me to eat up his dinner.. who am i? his dog? or PLEASE.... is like, he criticise about my size when i say i dun want to help him finish off his meal and ate a piece of chocolate... and my mum add on to it... seriously i have feelings too lar, if you are going to continue doing this to me, tell me... is either i get out of your side immediately, or you stop commenting... smart enough to comment about de problem but not smart enough to help me solve it.. i hate it... is like friends commenting, i no comments lar... i also got nothing to comment about anyway... family members comment.. i thought family members should be sensitive to each other's feelings? then what are they doing now?
i dunno whats wrong lar... so now i locked myself in the room, giving my brother 5 secs to get his things out , sort of venting my anger... is there anything wrong with that... better than killing myself right? thats dumb... is like, i am preventing myself from hearing all those comments, is there anything wrong? i DID gave him time to take his things what... i DID all that i could to teach him.. but he is just plain useless.. what can i do? and my mum was saying, " is just a few comments and you are venting such big anger?" and she said it in that kind of stupid tone.. then i was like, i can't be bothered to look at her lar... a few comments each day, from my dad, my mum and brother.. for consecutive weeks... you call that a few comments? a few comments from a few person everyday... ya.. very nice... is like, i never count in de comments from my friends lor hor... so angry lar... what you want me to do? stop eating now and go on fasting? harh? and she say don't lock de door.. oh please.. de purpose of locking de door is to prevent anyone from disturbing.. if i don't lock, then whats de point of closing de door in de first place.. use your brain lar..then she was like, if you don't like this house, get out lar.. then i was like murmuring, if tomorrow don't have chemistry exam, i wouldn't want to go home lar.. face all this kind of attitude... argh! is not that i won't accept negative comments.. but don't say till so sarcastic can? comments from my family members hurt me more deeply than my friends.. thats how i feel lar... maybe i am being too extra here.. but there is nothing i can do about it.. unless you kill me? anything lar.
hate it. hate my life . hate myself.
hahas... sounded so much like a kid going on strike or rebel... but then no lor.. i very guai one nerh xD i got revise my work and do my homework!! hehe... and that is de weird part.. being really abnormal here... haha...when will i have a breakdown and really let go nerh? haha...
