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♔ Sunday, May 18, 2008
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learnt a lot during mr sany's lesson... hmmm... about friends.. come to think about it, what he said was quite true, to a large extent i would say... he was saying, enemies and friends exist together so that there could be an equilibrium..weird, dunno how to explain...hmmm..let me think..
how many close friends do you have so far? those who will answer your calls late in the night to listen to you to talk( provided their phones are switched on), those whom you can really turn to in times of troubles... you can be friends for 8 years, 10 years or many many years, thinking that you are good friends, but do they understand you inside out? do they know your favourite food, who you hate and who you likes? are they the very first ones whom you will think of when you have happiness to share with, and when you need someone to talk to? come to think about it, do i really have friends who are really that close?
mr sany said friends to us appears to be closer to us than our family, which i very much agree, for my case lar... you see, is like, i spent from 5.45 am to 7pm in school on average, which is definitely more than 12 hours, and when i reached home, its around 8, i sleep at 1 am, but my family sleeps much earlier, so i spent around 3 hours with my family... minusing the time i bathe, eat and do homework, i got less than 2 hours with my family, how close can we be compared to friends in school... plus i am not like the very much treasured child in the family whereby i am showered with attention, so i am most likely spending my time with my computer, online with friends again, haha... then when i am with my family, i am more of the "C" kind of person, i feel stressed up, they are not showing that they are stressing me, but i can feel it, and i don't like it, so i seldom smile at home, because they find me very noisy, making me even more unable to relate myself to them, is like, i dunno...my brother is just getting bad to worse, don't bother to discipline him nowadays, with all my studies to cope with, he wants to turn bad? go ahead, because i am too tired of disciplining him and get scolded for being too fierce at him... too tired of it le..
to some people, family members are usually the last ones they turn to for advice, that is why they are lots of social problems, is like, how to turn to your family members when they just can't be bothered to listen to you? is like, for me, i can keep repeating something to my mother and she can still forget about it, she just loves to not listen to me talk, and i don't like it..and the funny part is, when some people turn to their friends, thinking that it might help, the problem seemed to get worse...haha...but its weird, shouldn't your close relatives be the one you turn to when you need someone to talk to? but why do they always turn out to be the last ones to know about you? have they tried to understand you when you talk to them? is it really your fault that you placed them at the last choice to turn to... its funny you know, sometimes i got some people asking, should i tell my mother about it? sometimes i asked that question too, so is like, why do i ask that kind of question? why is it that i can easily tell my friends about it and yet i can't do the same to my parents? weird right??? haha..
my mum was saying i very erm bad, defiant, or dunno what lar, so she can't be bothered with my studies, so i was thinkiing, i wish she can't be bothered with my studies, haha... because i am old enought to discipline myself in terms of my studies, i am definitely more anxious about my studies more than she do, right? sometimes the more she interfere with my studies, the more i reject her... so might as well let me be, right? as long as i can control, why not? the result might turns out even better...but she loves stressing me with results -.- really hate it
mr sany said you have friends because you have enemies, because you have a common interest of hating the same person, so when 2 friends gather together to gossip, it is about their enemies...haha...so funny right, but sometimes, its quite true...haha..for all you know, your enemies might understand you more than anyone of your friends...haha... right? zhi ji zhi bi, bai zhan bai sheng... haha...mr sany is so cute lar!! haha..so today's lesson left me with lots of doubts and questions which i have never thought of, then i was thinking, do my family really understands me inside out? haha... my favourite food, my daily routine, my best friends, my enemies, my doubts, my questions, my thoughts and feelings, what i really needs...do they know? i doubt they do... haha...and that is what saddens me most..
what is with all the happiness, when you can't share it with others? you can have 10000 strawberries, but if you eat it alone, you won't feel the joy of it, because you have no one to share it with. strawberry may be sour, but when you eat it with the ones you love, you taste the sweetness out of it, thats why i like strawberry, not because of its colour, but the joy of eating it with others, when its sour turns sweet.
