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♔ Sunday, May 11, 2008
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HAPPY MOTHER'S DAY!!!!
haha.. i don't she will see this but anyway, happy mother's day!
but today is just like any ordinary sunday, tuition in the morning, I WANT TO SLEEP! mr sany is so funny...haha...he was telling us about what his mother always did to him when he was young..haha... he is as nice as ever...haha...then after that my stupid brother, he scolded vulgarities... what de... from now on, i don't care him le xD HAha... i got my freedom back... haha...
then i was sms-ing zhu li, because i forgot the colour for the present's wrapper, haha, then i bought silver de...opps... never mind, should be can lar...haha... then she was saying tuesday skip gz not very nice, then i was kind of annoyed by it... i am always de bad guy, she is the sweety one.. is like, everytime gz clash with SMP, she will come and say, its not very nice to skip gz, i also know, but what can i do? don't go smp lar.... since we don't have the solution to such problem, bbviously we will choose to give up going to the event which does not involve too many conflicts... i am not in SMP group one mah, is like, at first we thought 5 people can be in the group, so me and zhu li join janice they all, then in the end realise max is 4, so i let zhu li have de place in SMP, but i continue to help their group because i promised them i would stay to help..i am not the kind of person who wants to gain credits, i love helping people, so never mind xD and once i am into something, i won't stop halfway...haha... so is like, even if i not in the group, i will still stay to help, since i had already stayed in the group for 3 months le and i had been handling all the written work, so as long as they recognise me as their group members, i am happy le because the certificate is just to prove that i am in the group, it is not important to me =) then is like, now zhu li keep asking whether go gz or smp,she say its not nice to skip gz and she is telling the truth, and i know its the truth, but what can i do when she keep giving me questions after questions and not giving me any suggestions or solutions? what can i do? split myself up? i want to go both, but the thing is, SMP seemed to be more important, since we had got datelines to meet... and gz, is like, now is near the performance, so is like, 4 days in a week we have to practice, its not too much lar, but is like, we not very free then still so many days need to practise...if we don't go SMP, the anti-bacteria assay how? i was thinking maybe ask the rest of the members to take pictures and keep records, but then again, zhu li might not agree to it, even if we go gu zheng, our heart wouldn't be there, but miss ang and the girls will get angry, but come to think about it... SMP is like once or twice a week, but gz is like thrice? since now is near performance... and is like, SMP is not every week have, but gz is, so is like, the time we go for SMP is more precious then gz, because the timing we go for gz is much more than SMP, but the teachers don't see things from our point of view, she only can see that we missed a lot of gz, but she don't see we missed a lot of SMP... so is like, ahhh... i dunno... maybe because i am not a very good player, or should i say i am not a good player, so i need to practise more, but, when my heart and soul is not there, its not there, you can't perform a ritual to call it back... but i enjoy gz times, because now i don't get scolded...xD haha...i think she can 't be bothered le?
so i seriously dunno lar... then i was telling zhu li that we go and discuss with miss ang and mrs choy tomorrow, because there is no point of us argueing when there is no solution to it at all, then she no reply me -.- its so hard to please everyone, so much so that sometimes, i just want to cry out...trying to please everyone is a sign of failure, but when everyone is not pleased with you, you are no where near success... i can just go for gz and not smp, but then, its not the right thing to do.... the rest sacrifice their CCA, why can't we? because the teacher's temper are different? i dunno... i don't side SMP and i don't side GZ, i just need someone to tell me to go for what,to give me some solutions or suggestions instead of telling me what are the problems which i already know it exist and i don't need someone to remind me of that... i am so tired of making decisions on my own le... its so stress...so tiring...
my mind is like rubber band, it can be bent and stretch, but if you stretch it too much, it might just snap... i am too tired le... so now i just finish writing the report and progress review, finish that taman negara brochure, and sleep... tomorrow then i face the problem. because i can't solve it now, i don't have any formula to help me with it....
