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♔ Friday, May 18, 2007
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wednesday is the worst day EVER...not the lang fest, but gu zheng...that teacher hor...cannot stand her lor...i know my playing skills is lousy because i cannot be bothered to practise it, and she ask me iof i will go for grading, i say no because my mother don't want me...I ARGUED with my mother at the beginning of the year when the teacher asked me about it and i want to go...and she was like, asking me to look into her eyes and her words have thorns which pierce through my heart every second...she ACCUSED that i LIED that my mother don't want me to go for grade 4 test, she say is i don't want to go for grading...hell her la..she accuse me and is like so obvious, in front of everyone...is not like i guilty or what, is like, the humiliation...because of gz, i argued with my mother for soooo many times, now my relatives all thinks that i am a bad girl because i argues with my mother, thanks to my mother who always tian you jia cu about me...which is not true...i feel like crying at that moment...does anyone knows?????that teacher...I HATE HER FOR MY LIFE......the first person to accuse me and is not my relatives...i will remember it for life...but i won't take revenge la...because of SYF, my grades drop and she say is we don't know how to manage the time...please, for god's sake, i everyday reach home by 9pm, do homework till god knows when...and she expect me to revise my work when 1 week 7 days, 6 days of gu zheng???no way man...no way...she never know...i manage to get a few distinctions i am so glad already...heaven has been kind to me..and she compare me with claudia when playing the SYF song, other parts which i have never played before...polease lor, claudia always play that for fun, i didn't play it, is obvious that i won't know how to play right...all this leads me to one thing...SHE HATES ME AND TREATS ME LIKE A THORN IN HER EYES...i shoudn't quit CO...I SHOULDN"T...i regret it lor...REGRET...and when i go home, i argue with my mother again..because of the grade 4 thing and miyazaki trip...i can go japan to perform...a RARE chance...maybe once inm my lifetime and she IS NOT LETTING ME GO?????because of a lame lame lame excuse---later i get molested and get killed...what???!!!! eek!!!every year also have people go japan why only i get killed and molested???lame???she ask me to pray to the godness and hit the whatever red stone to see if it is a positive prayer and i was like -.- from the day i born, there is NEVER once i get a positive prayer when i asked for the first time...i must try don't know how many times then can...i was like....grrr...no matter how i pray, what i pray, it will never be positive for the first time...so no japan...i feel like a bird which loves to fly yet trapped inside a cage which is locked by a thousands of locks....too bad...
