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♔ Friday, February 16, 2007 11:16 PM

my mother is wah....so wah....so "good"...so "fantastic"...i am not trying to be sacarstic ok...if you know her, you will know what i mean...yes...she is good...i admit...very good...especially when i am sick...but the problem is...she has a well hidden mind....she cannot forget a fact that i am her daughter, i know what is going on in that mind of hers and she keeps thinking that i don't know...i just simply don't care...today i went out with cheryl, but came back late, and she keeps scolding...say i go and don't know what bootlick her, or greedy because of food or her father's car...please lor...my main reason is because i don't want to go home...go home is stress, if can...i rather stay in the library, finish my homework, then go back home to prepare for her scoldings...i don't like to do work with scoldings around my ears...they are like wasps...plus my brother, this house is unbearable...how nice it will be to be in school to study till forever...i don't mind having gz all day as long as i have time to sleep, study and play...i don't care...
NUMBER 1, i am a person with dignity ok...why would i want to bootlick cheryl when i am satisfied with what i have now?she is a friend of mine ok...i treat EVERYONE EQUALLY...i don't practise favouritism whereby to hate someone because he' she is pretty or ugly, tidy or untidy, smart or stupid, rich or poor or anything which will be beneficial to me, neither am i a person who follows anyone who is popular just for don't know what...i TREAT ALL MY FRIENDS AND RELATIVES EQUALLY AND I PUT IN MY WHOLE HEART IN WHATEVER I DO...BE IT IN TREATING MY FRIENDS OR MY STUDY...it has always been like this when i was young...i stand firm on my grounds and WILL NOT and SHALL NOT change...for as long as i live...and thinking that i am that kind of stupid person who don't understand things, she say cheryl is like my missy, her parents are my boss. i fetch cheryl to and meet them and my "bosses" will have to feed me because it is dinner time, she repeated this 4 times. please lor...i am not in 2 devotion for nothing. i accompany cheryl because i was thinking she is a girl, she can't take taxi alone right?as a friend, i will definitely help her one...i dont know others, but thats me...anyway,i don't expect any gains from this...GET THIS CLEAR MY DEAR MOTHER,I DON"T EXPECT GAINS IN ANYTHING I DO....
NUMBER 2, why should i be greedy of food when i had no idea that i am having dinner with cheryl...all along, i thought it was like just go there and i will go home straight...the dinner thing gave me a shock too ok...i told my mother i will be back early because i thought so..and foir goodness sake, i wouldn't lie and shall not lie ok...even if i lied, i will still speak the truth after that...food is just nothing...and she keep saying i siao because of the crab and mee fen...PLEASE HOR....not like i never eat before...i wanted to leave but i got no choice, because no bus to go to my house...so i stayed...not really unreluctant, but i think its ok...i am anything one...anything...i don't care...even if they give me instant noodles, or even nothing, i am happy...ok...GET THIS CLEAR,MOTHER...
NUMBER 3, is not that i want to sit her father's car...please lor...what kind of person do you think i am? cheap skate or what? please hor...i got movement sickness...you give me mers or what every brand of transport, i will still prefer walking...I AM TELLING THE TRUTH...i don't care...even if cheryl's dad is not giving me a lift home, cheryl just tell me what bus to take, i will still go home myself and i will still accompany cheryl to her parents...if anyone had been thinking that i am that kind of person who is cheap skate, tan xiao pian yi or what, you better change it...BECAUSE I AM NOT...but i am very grateful to cheryl and her parents, they are nice people...very nice people which you would like to know...
when she say that i am that kind of person, i cried...what kind of mother is this?i really want to say a taboo of mine...what the hell...i don't care...she say i cried because of cheryl...i cried because of being accused of something which is 10000000% not true...oh my goodness...for gods sake...can't she read my mind?read my lips then...and the most miracle thing is i didn't say anything to defend myself...good right...and she thinks i am guilty...i want her to STOP TALKING...can she zip that trap of hers up?for a minute?i want PEACE...thats why i love nature...peace and quiet...nice and sweet...simple and easy...not complex like minds...and she even hit me and call me cheryl's maid...ok...i let her hit...whatever thing she wants...and she ask me to THINK over what i had done...to think if i should become a selfish person?or what?huh?and she say " hai wei le pen you ku ah...wahlao.."a TABOO word in my dictionary...i cried because of HER...she knows a not???NO!!!!and i won't tell her... no point...i don't expect anything back...and the crab just now which i had eaten...nice..and she say it as if i am greedy of it...please hor...LET ME REPEAT IT ONCE AGAIN....I AM NOT THE KIND OF PERSON WHO IS GREEDY OF FOOD, CAR AND NOT A BOOTLICKER..
its new year ok...please lor...for gods sake...GIVE ME PEACE...if we are going to malaysia which i seriously doubt not...and if we really are going and she still insist that she is right, I AM GOING TO STARY CALM AND LET IT BE...LET ALL THE PEOPLE THINKS HOW BAD I AM AND ONLY I KNOWS...i am not going to scream and shout...no point arguing...i am sorry but to say this, in arguements, i am definitly on the losing point, especially with the aunties and my elder cousin...they don't trust me, because they think" WHATEVER PARENTS SAID, its is definitly truth...and so be it...i don't care..by shutting my mouth up is a good way to keep them quiet too...at least lesser people's new year is not ruin...only mine what...no big deal...and now, i am not really excited about new year...i feel that it is just another day of holiday for me....